Pages 3 and 4: squares
This spread is all about layering. We were given a list of 27 images to find and put on our pages in any order we chose, previously having coloured the pages with a dark paint. Returning to this after pages 5 and 6 we were instructed to draw squares etc around pics of our choice and to spread on and wipe off a pale colour. I did this and ended up with a basically pink page which I really didn’t like at all – hated in fact. The pictures sank into the page and it just looked awful to my eyes. I know the point of this is not to make pretty pages, but it is about getting to know ourselves – and I definitely did not like what I had achieved so I decided to go over it with, firstly oil pastels and then paints of various dark hues. I am much happier with this now and will leave it alone until I decide to fiddle some more :).
Pages 5 and 6: “I forgot to tell you….”
The pages were gesso’d first of all to prep them. Next the instruction was to write in a stream-of-consciousness style filling both pages, starting with the prompt: “I forgot to tell you…”. Well, I was surprised at what came out of this for me, it was really quite cathartic, as is often the case when writing in this way. It ended up as an almost letter to my mother who died earlier this year, many of the things I never got to say. I knew the next step for this spread was going to be to cover the whole thing up and I really wrestled with this as I felt that what had come out in the writing was important for me and I did not want to suppress it again. So I left it for a day or so until I came to a firm decision about what I wanted to do: leave the writing totally uncovered as was my initial emotional response, or follow the instructions and see what happened. As you can see I opted for the latter, however I did copy the text before doing so – so yeah it was a bit of a cop-out but I am happy with that. Next it was tape, all sorts anywhere, then gesso, then sanding that lot, then paint. I like the effect of this and am happy that I am getting to do the sort of backgrounds, many layered, that I have wanted to achieve.